Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Talking About Not Running Out of Chocolate


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The chocolate fountain still has it.
And I'm still not out of chocolate today.
I imagine you through the day.
See your smile here inside my head.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Hurt in Lies


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Hurt in Lies

We told a million lies
We’ve seen it a thousand times
And it speaks.. Speaks for itself
All the things we’ve done for us to suffer

Do you see what they see?
Do you feel what they feel?

The eager desperation
For all the fired conclusions..

Well, what is enough to satisfy you?
What is fine for an outlaw?
Is there anything?
Anything which we deserve?
But suffering and madness for all our failings.

It hurts so much.
For that’s the truth.
A million times we cried
For the million tried.

And so, what can we do for this?
Is being desperate enough to satisfy?
Is there anything more? Anything less?

Yeah, that’s right.
Can’t do anything.
Can’t save yourself.
We can’t save ourselves.

Right now.
What can you do?
To satisfy yourself of the thirst?
Can you create water
And drink it yourself?

In the door there’s someone knocking.
Open it and you will see...

There’s no magic.
No fairytales, no fantasies..
Just Truth.
For all the lies you’ve spoke
For all the promises you’ve broke
Admit it.
Atonement.
But there is love.
Love offered freely by the One who created the light.
Return and you’d be welcomed
So warmly.. So comfty. So true.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Meaning


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Meaning

Have you found meaning?
Have you seen the definition?
What is it really are you looking for.
Why do you bother standing blankly on your own gloom?

Have you seen life?
Have you seen the sky?
When it is colored so brightly
With magnified light.

Have you seen the ocean?
Have you seen its shine?
When the wave moves closely unto the land
Touching it with such vigor

Have you lived your life?
As the birds are told to fly
As the fishes are told to wonder into endless waters
As the wind are made to roam into the world
Giving a soft breeze and sweet feeling
To anyone who encounters it.

Have you wondered which meaning
You are living right now.
Have you wondered of who’s power
You are alive right now.
Have you thought that what you have is not really yours
And that what people say “enjoy what you had”
Is really just lost words.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

I Wish You Love


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I Wish You Love
Rachael Yamagata


I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this
I wish you love

And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
And more than wealth
I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very best
I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very bestI set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love

But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love.

***

You don't see me.
But I see you.
Others see me.
But I don't see them.
People see me breathing, eating, walking, talking.
But deep inside it's not like that.
I don't do anything like that.
I am now empty.
As empty because of my own fault.
I drowned myself in you.
But you aren't supposed to drown me.
And now I feel nothing.
How could this be..
Empty.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

In the Silence


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In the silence i feel sadness.
And I won't linger to much here.
So goodbye sweet Saturday.
May we meet and fall in love that day.

Friday, November 21, 2008

What now?


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What now?

We told a million lies
We’ve seen it a thousand times
And it speaks.. Speaks for itself
All the things we’ve done for us to suffer

Do you see what they see?
Do you feel what they feel?

The eager desperation
For all the fired conclusions..

Well, what is enough to satisfy you?
What is fine for an outlaw?
Is there anything?
Anything which we deserve?
But suffering and madness for all our failings.

It hurts so much.
For that’s the truth.
A million times we cried
For the million tried.

And so, what can we do for this?
Is being desperate enough to satisfy?
Is there anything more? Anything less?

Yeah, that’s right.
Can’t do anything.
Can’t save yourself.
We can’t save ourselves.

Right now.
What can you do?
To satisfy yourself of the thirst?
Can you create water
And drink it yourself?

In the door there’s someone knocking.
Open it and you will see...

There’s no magic.
No fairytales, no fantasies..
Just Truth.
For all the lies you’ve spoke
For all the promises you’ve broke
Admit it.
Atonement is needed.
But there is love.
Love offered freely by the One who created the light.
Return and you’d be welcomedSo warmly.. So comfty. So true.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

More Chocolates


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There's so many chocolates out there, if you were to pick one, please pick me. =)

***

Love is more on doing than just thinking, more on expressing than showing. This is how I view having that kind of relationship because, I would really love to be able to express my feeling than just hoping for it. I want that kind of relationship to be different. This has been my thought because when I fall in love, I really do, seriously. And it's really sad and disappointing if I cannot express it. So, if not, better not. If can, better do. Being in the middle of it is depressing. Like now, I know what to do, but I can't do it.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Let the Chocolate Out


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If my blood is made of chocolate, then it's ok to bleed because it would be sweet *sigh*

***

I know that you don’t care if I care for you. But I need to know if you’re ok. It doesn’t really matter, because I don’t have a choice but to know. It’s a necessity. And I’m worried. I am more concerned in how you’re doing right now. Well. That’s all..

***

Monday, November 17, 2008

Bitter Sweet


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Bitter sweet that's what love and life could be.
But not this cake probably.

***

As hard as

I refuse to deny anything
I refuse to push myself to achieve something
I always thought that everything should be ordinary
Even though it isn’t

Can’t help myself not to explain things
I can’t stop myself for straitening everything
Is it because I am really obnoxious?

Well, it’s really hard to push myself.
As hard as making me fall in love
As hard as making me a good person
As hard in pursuing my dreams look so far

And since I really refuse to think this over
I decide ridiculously if possible at the time being
And then stop and review my decision
And then reverse it into something else.

I wish to say that I try so hard
But the way I do it is not the same as anyone

***

Two things that I don’t like:

Boring and stupid things
Doing boring and stupid things

I guess I don’t like myself huh *sigh*

***

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Dragonfly


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Dragonfly

I really want to cry
But the tears won’t come out
By this time,
I should really cry
And pour it all out
But I can’t

The reason I don’t know
I’m not sure anymore

I’ve been torn apart with what I know and the truth
And mind’s been spinning: thinking / not thinking
With this weird holocaust that I am right now
There’s no way I could understand anything anymore

Yes, I have lost track
I have gone off to the wrong road
It’s just like following a dragonfly
Trying to catch it
Little did I know it has sent me to this wide open field I never known
Living me alone
And don’t know how to go back home

Yes, it’s wide open
I can see the nice field
And the dragonfly I’m chasing is still here
But I guess I am trapped
Is there anyway out?

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Dreamer


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Dreamer

I dream too much that’s why I don’t sleep.
But my eyes hurt. I cannot cry.
Thus, I really have to give it a rest.
And so I close my eyes..
Imagining myself to be asleep.
Bit by bit,
staring at the blackness
Until my eyes closes, fall asleep.

Resting in the quietness of the night..
A second after I woke up,
Took a look at the clock,
“Is it already time to get up?”
And then I close my eyes again..
Gather the pillows and fade.

How long will it be like this?
I really feel so far.
I know the door is open,
But I know not how to come back..
And so now this is what I get for boasting,
I’m the one to blame.
I made it like this.
Where’s the right road?
Hope to see it and walk.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Chocolate Dream


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Drink up this chocolate dream.
***
I never thought I would think of you the way I do now. It's funny just knowing that before, when I first met you, I haven't really liked you. And back then I had an impression that you're just a typical guy, one of those guys who are arrogant and always feel that they drive girls crazy over them. Ah, guess that's right.. Because now I'm here, and I want more of you not knowing if you feel the same. But that was just a dream, and now the truth exists.
The question is, which is and which is not?
***

Thursday, November 13, 2008

A Piece of Chocolate Cake


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May I have a piece of chocolate cake?
***
A Piece of Love
There are lots of things I don’t understand
About myself
About other people

But I do accept my faults
And I do accept my ingenious stupidity

When it comes to love I don’t really know anything
What to feel about it
How to feel it

Oh yeah, the topic called “love” is something I really want to understand
What is love?
Can it be defined?
Can it be identified?

Even though I don’t really know
Or maybe unconsciously I just don’t want to know
I would still like to emphasize
That I still am interested about it

I like hearing love stories
How a person fall for somebody
How they express their “love” to each other
How they end up spending their whole life together

Hmm. Thinking about it
Maybe I’m just biased
Feeling something weird about time and existence..
And for some reason,
This hinders me from falling in love
Knowing what love is
What it’s all about
***


Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Chocolate Fountain


***

Melt a chocolate and shape it any way you want too and the taste is still great. Like words. Like love.

***

Words are freely expressed. And sometimes can be unwillingly said. We blurt it out, sometimes we just scream it out. And most of a time I just keep quiet or blot it out on a piece of paper. It’s the way I say how we feel, probably the way I feel what I feel. It’s a medium of expressing thoughts, like coloring a picture book and putting lyrics into a song.

*Sleeping is not the only way to see our dreams.*

“Say what you mean, mean what you say”

“Love without truth is hypocrisy, Truth without love is brutality”

“Love hurts, but sometimes it’s a good hurt.”
*When I'm mesmerize, it's only him I could see..*

***

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Love Chocolate Cake


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Perfect chocolate cake for a perfect chocolate occassion.
When the bells start ringing and white doves start flying.

***

The person you love would be somebody who would share your dream with, fulfill your dream with, create another dream with.

The person you love would be somebody you would share your fears with, fight your fears with, conquer your fears with.

The person you love would be somebody you won’t be shy with, won’t ignore you, and won’t leave you alone.

The person you love would be somebody who would show you another phase of life, would take care of you, take you to places you never been, create moments you’ve never yet imagined, create pictures with colors you’ve not yet seen.

Our life is like a book, written by an Author, main part played by ourselves. Thus, don’t play the role of the Author. Just be yourself. Wait for the moment where the Author intended you to meet that somebody. And refrain from looking for that somebody by yourself.


Sometimes we get tired of waiting. Consider that time when you go your own way. Speed up finding that special one. Yes, at that time you will find it easy. And yes, you did found someone. But then you are still having doubts. Is this it?

And you find yourself petrified by the weirdness of the situation, simply because you don’t know the answer for our own question. And so, return. Return where else but to what the Author has intended for this climax to extend. As it is, you couldn’t know if you don’t inquire. And you couldn’t receive if you do not ask.

So, let’s play our part, our character, our reality.

You know it is very hard. It really is. Probably that’s the main catch in being a lead character in your own story. Living in constant spot light and with each move is of immense importance. But who said you’re alone in this story. You never were. If there is a leading character, there is definitely a supporting one. Accordingly, don’t turn away from extended help to you. The Author intended it to be.

And then see, you might find yourself smiling in every turn of the page while waiting for that somebody, though tears fall under the dim lit night sky, though the winds feel so cold under the rain clouds, walking with everyone beside you.
Not alone. Burning bright like the stars ..

.. with a nice piece of chocolate cake bite.
***

Monday, November 10, 2008

Chocolate Dipped Strawberry


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Chocolate fits all tastes.
It's inviting.
It looks so sweet.



***

"Dipped"

I wish to fall in love.
But I don’t know how.
I wish to claim my rights
As a human, fall in love.

I fired many missiles
And my lameness has gotten into me
My stupidity reached its limit
And now how can I be free

I’ve gone out of context
I’ve faced many regretful paths
I mumbled destructive tasks
And now I lay here
Torn and broken apart
As if I was never free
As if nothing passed.

Now hey, hey see this girl here
Drench in her own blood
Lying in her own bed
Covered by her own dirt
Can you help her?
You with fearsome hands
Of whom the skies are ready to fall
Of whom the seas are ready to roar
Would you please let your love be known
***

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Chocolate Bar Hobby


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Chocolate drives me crazy, if there is chocolate flavoured rice, I would order one and eat it for lunch and dinner. 
***

You driven me crazy, if there is you for sale, I would buy one and take you anywhere I go. It’s like a hobby, because it would make me happy. You need me, when you need me and I respond to you every time. And even if I can’t, I would still do. This is how I’ve been, thought of you comes to me.. Anywhere, anytime, most of the time..

I took your smile seriously and now I can’t stop searching for it. I don’t like it if I knew there’s something bothering you. Especially when something there’s something difficult going on with you. I know there’s nothing much I can do for you, just to stay with you, like this, even if I’m not beside you.

This is what I can do to express my feelings since I can’t directly say it to you. So, let me breathe by writing it all here. When my mind take flight and when my eyes hurt.

***

Chocolate easily melts, so eat it while it’s still in tact.
***

As for me, this is my chocolate bar hobby,
where love is craving.
And there’s no chocolate for sale.