“Sige lang”

This is a nice quote. It’s something I get to say to myself nowadays.

People usually say I make tasks look easy. I just do, but it doesn’t mean that it’s really easy.. I just don’t want to push myself to hard. And I need to relax when doing a difficult task for me to finish it. Being rushed doesn’t work for me and so does panicking.

In my school days I never reviewed too much during exams, I don’t like disappointments. The thought of me exerting too much effort and failing is not a very good sight to me, so better avoid it. But of course for a student to push himself hard in studying has its benefits, its just that, to me that is something I didn’t even thought of. But it could be nice right?

My parents never pushed me that hard and never told me any expectations of theirs, thankfully. I remembered telling my mother I got grade of 1.00 in algebra and she didn’t react that much. High grades seems to be a small thing and I now understand why.. Because after all the studying the real exam is here in the real uncontrolled world.

It’s almost 5 months now, since I left the Philippines, leaving so far away from home. Ah, this is what they call independence.. Right? Pushing myself harder, working hard and functioning. It’s sort of weird. But it’s something I need to do. So, sige lang.