Feign? Not. :)

I don’t pretend and unfortunately it doesn’t do well for me. Not all the time that is.

First, people say I’m to frank. Yes, I am. Sometimes to the extent that it hurts people. But in fairness, I did reduced being like this, though sometimes my frankness still comes out..

Second, at work I’m too grim. Haha! Why? Because I can’t help when I’m annoyed my voice becomes high pitched. Just today one of my workmate said, “Why are you always angry?” I just told him, “No, I’m not angry, that’s not me angry. I’m different when I’m angry.” Yeah, it’s true. Me being angry is not talking. If I talked and sounds that I’m angry, not really, I’m just making a point. But somehow I feel disappointed, because this side of me has been vanished years ago but now somehow it comes back. My hunch is because of pressure at work..

I did learn something now that I noticed this traits of mine.. I learned that, I cannot expect people to understand me and that I need to change. And at least hide my bad traits if I cannot completely remove it. Simple reason: I don’t want to hurt other people and I want to be who I suppose to be, that is, a peacemaker not the other way around. :)

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"Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God." Matthew 5:9 (NIV)