Got a Creepy Additional Boss

A-huh. Creepy. Why? Because he just pops up behind my back or sometimes he walks into the office up to my table.. And behind me is a window with blinds, he opens the blinds with his fingers and peeks outside. He does this probably a couple of times a day. Isn't that creepy? For one, you wont see anything that is company related from that window (you'll just see an empty villa where no one ever comes out). And two, if you are spying or want to know what I'm doing, why look from that window? Just directly see what I'm doing or even ask me. What he is doing is creepy and annoying.. >.<

Anyways, I saw there was a movie out now, the "Horrible Bosses".. LOL. I wanna watch it. :D

PS. I said additional boss because I already have a boss whom I report to. Now, we have this additional one meaning I need to report to two people now. >.>

Psalm 91

1 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. 2 I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” 3 Surely he will save you from the fowler’s snare and from the deadly pestilence.4 He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. 5 You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, 6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,nor the plague that destroys at midday.7 A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you.8 You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked. 9 If you say, “The LORD is my refuge,”   and you make the Most High your dwelling, 10 no harm will overtake you, no disaster will come near your tent. 11 For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; 12 they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. 13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra,  you will trample the great lion and the serpent. 14 “Because he[b] loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.15 He will call on me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.16 With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation.”

Today's Summary

I got an Elance job about writing articles. Still working on it. The software is still pending. Need to finish it soon.. For October Financial Statements. There will be another Board Meeting on October 6.. I still haven't fully recovered from last month but what can I do.. If I can just go away from this I will, but I can, so I need to pull up all of my strength and do this. Not because I can, but because God can. :)

How's the first day?

Yesterday my boyfriend went back to our home country. It was nice that I get to talk to him using skype immediately when he got home. It's raining that night, I thought he wont be able to go home immediately but as scheduled he is home around 12am Philippine time. I'm thankful for the safe travel and his mother seems happy when I talked to her in skype. He also looks just fine when I talked to him. We miss each other already but it's gonna be alright.. :)

Today we got to skype before I went to work. We get to send messages using facebook. I'm fine.

It's Been a While

It's been a while since I wrote anything on my blog. Just a re-cap: Hon just left today.. Yes, it's final he is now on his way back to our home country. Yes, I cried and tears are like raindrops that fall anytime but I'm happy. I'm happy because this is something that needs to happen for the betterment of us. In all aspect. By myself I am weak but with God I can do everything. It is for this reason that I keep standing on my feet knowing He knows what's best and He has plans for me to give me a future and a hope. I am so happy I am loved. And I pray that I can do more to get to where God wants me to. :)

Elance

I just found Elance.com. It's an online job site. Most of the jobs are done online, no need to go to the office of the employer and you can work for any employer around the world. I'm actually am amazed when I saw all the jobs posted there. This made me realize that I got more things to improve with regards to my profession as an Accountant and my skills in general. It's fun knowing now I have a chance to do part time jobs online since I am always in front of the computer surfing the net..

I tried different things online when I am in the Philippines, I never thought I could have a chance to do an actual job online like bookkeeping. I remember doing pay for clicks.. And now I am thinking of doing it again. I need other income badly. :D I also remember that one time where I thought I sign up for a job opportunity online which turned out to be a online casino trick which I didn't pursue further because I'm not really into it.. Plus I live in the Philippines during that time and online casino is not allowed. LOL. I also am doing online surveys to use the points on an online game I'm playing. ;) Ah! I also want to try to know other online income opportunities from Jomar Hilario but I don't have credit card (and don't plan to get one at the moment), since I need to purchase the course from him to know how it works.

Now, I prefer on checking Elance daily to see if I have a job opportunity and apply for it. Maybe one of this days I can finally get a job there and get paid and then buy more connections (required when applying) to apply for more jobs. Currently I have a normal account which is free. It gives me 10 connections per month so I only have 10 chances to apply for a job per month but that's fine. I learned that nothing starts big so I must go from level 1 until I reached my desired level. Hopes it goes well with me at Elance but even if not, I take all the learnings with me and move forward. :)

This is it. Survival.

A few days from now will be the moment that I consider as the survival stage. Where in a seed was planted and cultivated for almost two years. And now it’s time to let it be. Will it grow? Or will it wither? Only God knows. Time will tell..

Am I scared that it might wither? Yes. I am, of course. But still I have hope, I hope for the best and I hope it grows.

I Want iPad 2 ;D

Reason: I want to draw. :D

When I’m still at grade school I always saw myself as an artist. I excel when it comes to art. Even when I went to high school, I enjoyed our drafting subject and did fine work whether in pencil, pen, ink and water color. Though I don’t have all my drawings with me, I can still see them in my mind. In college I still enjoyed painting, and my friends say it’s like I’m just playing. I can still remember when I stay awake up to dawn just to finish a project, and I’m satisfied with my work. Now, it’s like everything is moving digitally and I want to pursue my artistic side. I want to draw. Really do. :D

For this reason I just finished searching stuff about iPad 2 and about drawing apps. I found out what I need and now I want to purchase one, I still have funding problem and now that’s what I am trying to work out. ;D

Weirder Dream?

I slept 8 hours today but to my dismay I had another weird dream.. And must I say, it’s weirder than the other one. I think it’s fair to say that it’s a sad dream.. Like a memory that talks to me. But still, it’s really weird.

Still hanging.. I guess.

I still don't know if he's going to stay here or not. But now, there's a big possibility of him going back to our country. Yes, he just said that he probably just have 1 week more to stay here. To me, it's ok that he go.. Because that's the best solution for everything, him fixing his family problems, him getting the learning he wants in our country and him finishing the 6 months ban without any financial expense. But in my heart, I know I don't want him to leave but I don't want to push him staying here if it means difficulty. I guess, I just have to follow what he always say as practicality. I saw his efforts to stay and I think that's enough to make me feel better. He did what he could, but still he needs to go. Maybe I'm just sad when I heard him say that he thinks that his 3 years where wasted here.. For me, though he might see that way financially but inside of him he gained something. I just hope for him to see and realized that..

Feel Ridiculed

I feel ridiculed and it hurts.

Yes. After all the hard work it’s still not good enough. We just had the Partner's Board Meeting. First the mockery of the integrity of my work and second the caliber of me being an accountant. Today, I just realized that though I work and function as an accountant, maybe I really am still not qualified. It is not that I regret not taking the board exam before getting work, because I don’t. I have my reasons why I didn’t take the exam and I still got the same reason why I’m not taking it now.

Anyways, I feel the urgency of taking the board exam now, simply because.. I want to test and check myself if I can really be an accountant. I graduated Bachelor of Science in Accountancy but because of not taking the CPA board exam I’m not questioning myself now. Grr.. I really don’t like this feeling.

But still, no harm done.. I just need to move on like I always do and take myself to the next level. Like my favorite greeting from a friend of mine “Be better today than yesterday.”

Why expect too much?

I just been confronted again the reality that I am not valued much in our company. Or should I say not only me, but probably everyone here.

This past 2 weeks I’ve been hearing my boss asking me if he could get a bonus for managing the company. He is already one of the owners but still he wants to get more out or the company. Weird right.. Anyhow, after that conversation I just asked: “How about me?” Lol. Yes, I asked it. After I came back to vacation I told myself that I wouldn’t question whatever salary increase I will get but after a month I didn’t resist and still asked it.

It’s funny. He’s partially angry though I actually expected that he would go ballistic. Haha! But still, I continue with my piece but at the end of discussion it seemed unimportant to him. So, in short nothing happened. Which leads me to the question, why expect too much?

I realized that I don’t need to expect or be demanding. I just need to do my thing as I always do and expect a better result. Anyways, why should I worry about these things? God always provides, He knows what I want and what I need but most importantly He knows what’s best for me.

Crazy Dream

I woke up early this morning, I think it was 6:30am. Reason? Because I got a crazy dream and I immediately woke up to nullify it.

I usually don’t have dreams when asleep or maybe I do but I just don’t remember it.. This few days though, I’ve been getting some weird dreams. One is when I dreamt that I’m aboard a small plane and it malfunctioned. It’s day time. I can see the blue sky and white clouds. I used my parachute but it malfunctioned too.. I hold on to the parachute with my left hand and then suddenly my hand slipped, thus, I fall. I just see my hand and I imagine that I’m falling slowly, and then I woke up. Another dream I had was I am flying over the sea, it is night time and it seems that a battle was just over. I saw big creatures under the water and ships over. I flew and saved my friends who are in the water. But they look so small and I hold them all in my hand then when I came to the land they returned to their normal size. Weird right?

Sometimes I just dream of something that I normally do, like when I’m in the accommodation and sometimes the setting is in the Philippines. I thought it’s actually happening but then I woke up and discover it was just a dream. And last night’s dream was just crazy. Simply crazy..

I always thought that dreams are pictures in my mind that I accumulated thru the day and when I sleep my subconscious combines it and makes a unique clip. But I do wonder where dreams come from.. Especially when I dream something unexpected or something I haven’t even thought of.

Honestly, it’s still hard for me to sleep early maybe because of our Ramadan timings where we usually got home by 1am. When I get home I need to do stuff and usually fall asleep by 2am -3am. Now, we are back in our normal timings. We get home by 10pm after fixing my stuff and it’s time to sleep I just lay there on my bed waiting to fall asleep. Come to think of it, I haven’t got a nice sleep here in Abu Dhabi.. I mean, that moment where I just get to bed and immediately fall asleep. That’s why I miss the Philippines. I miss our home. Our family.

Work: Atlast. Finished the Financials.

After 37 days of grueling work, including almost everyday overtime and one holiday work, I finished the Financial Reports for June, July and guess what, August. :D

Right now, I’m working on the presentation for the Board Meeting on Thursday while waiting for the audited report. I submitted all the reports to the auditor and just e-mailed the reports to the partners.

I give back all the Glory and Praises to God. He is truly awesome. Praise God for giving me the strength, knowledge and wisdom to finish all the reports I have to finish. ^_^

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I’ve been an Accountant for more than 5 years now. But my experience on doing the whole Financial Report just started when I worked here in Abu Dhabi. My position is "General Accounts" that simply means I do all the Accounting.. Last year we have an Accountant doing the sales but she left the company. Right now, I’m the only Accountant here.. The person who replaced her is with medical background so technically I have to do the sales too..

It’s hard to work alone, especially in Accounting. Simply because there are areas which need focus.. But how can I focus if I’m doing everything.. Anyways, I still have a long way to go. There are stuff I need to do and I have to do.