2nd Check-up

Went to the hospital today and did another ultrasound. The doctor said, it's better to be removed atleast within 2-3 years. But I guess it's better to remove it now because he mentioned "growing".. I will come back to get the official results after 3 days. We'll see what the other doctor would say. If she's going to refer me to a specialist or surgeon.

I felt bad. It's not that I'm "that" scared on doing the surgery. Maybe I'm just concerned with having a scar or some other effects that the surgery may cost. These questions I would be asking the doctor when I come back.

I felt sad. It's not that I'm not used to being alone, trust me, I am. But that doesn't sudgest that I don't want to have friends, trust me, I want to. I felt sad about that news and felt depressed telling my self, "who cares if you get a surgery?". For one, my family is in the Philippines, my sister is in Dubai, my boyfriend is in the Philippines too, so who really care right? Maybe they will, but would it matter if I tell them about my situation? No one will even be there with me during the procedure. Though I have friends in Abu Dhabi, I just don't want to bother them for this.. And as I said, I am used to being alone.. All I want now is presence of a person who loves me.. Really. But again, who cares? LOL

I want my family to care but the truth is I don't want them to know because maybe they would worry about me.. Maybe.

Ok, this post is too depressing.

But even if I felt like this about my situation, I know God will be there for me and will guide me all the way. :)


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Other Stuff:

>I just downloaded a clearer version of Iron Man 1 and 2 + The Avengers. I think I have a new movie crush after Keanu Reeves now Robert Downey Jr. ;)

>I try to call the HR personnel who contacted me about the interview last Monday but she is on leave. Will she call me tomorrow? *still waiting*